Its all about reality that is talking...
Shall not elaborate too much on what i do recently.. Cos it'll be Stories + Boring..
Okay... Emotional now.. Maybe cos of what i watch...
Yes,I watched a show,name 同事三分亲 and the episode is on <彤情．分>
It is about a couple wanting to break up because of 'no feel'
What TongTong said was actually correct... Looking at the one that you love being together with another girl and having that cheerful smile on the face,you shouldn't be jealous at all,but to give them your blessing as forcing him to get together with you is just saying as a term "留得住他的人，但留不住他的心"... It's very emotional to everyone when the other side two-timed him/her.. It's really very sadded too... Having a partner telling another person that he/she wasn't angry when he/she saw his/her partner with another guy/girl together playing and smiling,its sad for them,but the blessing is there for the other couple..
Why should we keep dreading on to a person and let him/her being so pressurize and sad all because of you...
Learn to let go,learn to accept the facts and reality,do the right decision. The real person that is always beside you will not always be the ones that you thinks.. Is the one that you don't really appreciate him/her.

Long story huh? :D Sometimes emotional stories will come out of my mind when i want to write stories... Linking stories of getting a couple together,break ups,this and that... I've never ever thought why my mind has so many emotional stories... Sometimes i also need to think of times when i'm holding on to a girl's hand and telling her that 'i'll always love her'... Though its groaks,but this is what a lyrics composer usually do.. ><

I need a space,a quiet space,for me to really cool myself up and back to normal again...
My friends are helping me,and i'm glad,thanks.
But sometimes,do thought of people's feeling before doing something or saying something... It might hurt that person...

Thats all i wanna talk about.. It's quite late le.. And getting ready to sleep soon... May everyone enjoy tomorrow and other days.

GoodBye.

Times have come and i think that you should really overcome this reality.

I really don't wish to see you hurt anymore...

Please,i really want to know your rightful decision...

Though it might hurt me,but i'm okay,i can take it.

Really really thought of what ........................................................................................

I want you to really know that ...................................................................................

If you know that,i'm really grateful...

PS: IMY,ILY.

Many things.. Many Contriversey(don't really know the correct spelling) have happen after alots of people seen my previous post.
Actually no one knows anything.. No one knows how stress i am...
Why i want to cope myself with computer games and homeworks..?? Definately theres a reason for it..
And don't you all felt that after my grandmother pass away,or even before,after we got back our O level Prelims result, i've changed alot?? Alot of things happen during that whole week... But i just don't want to say it out...
Don't say because i want to keep it as a secret,but i don't want to say it out.
After that week.. My life almost change... Everything is all ...... , i'm ...... . Even if i want to go out,i will also need to think before doing that... Will something happen to me?? Who will i consult help when i need help?? Its not like last time.. I become dependent... Not like the Independent guy that you all know few weeks before...

Last time i always tolerate everything... But now i've changed completely. You might not see the Mcvie that you know for the past 3 years and 8 months, Cos many many things really changed me to be dependent abit... Just now i written alot,but suddenly my internet broke down so the post is not save,so i'm tired,just want to write short.

Just to conclude is that,I've had quite enough of every single thing that i've tolerate for the past few years... And i'm very emotional now unlike last time...

Smiling now has aways been a fake thing i want to do to make you all feel that the actual Mcvie haven't change,but he has changed..

Just to summarise everything after i saw that. I know you all want to change my idea of what i said in the last post,but i can't, cos i've had enough... And i'm like a 定时炸弹 now,anytime will bomb and anytime will faint. This is not a 'warning letter',but i hope you all can at least understand how i feel and at least know how to manage me. I only have one thing to tell you all,i've changed,Why? many reasons... How to be like the past?? Quite impossible...

PS: Cherish the ones that are around you helping you and assisting you when you need help.Don't hurt them or you'll regret one day when you realise that you eventually need them...

You and I are having Ups and Downs recently... We are both emotional and sad because of everything that happen this past few weeks ...

I'm actually abit sad that .........

But i believe that you will ............

I hope that you will ........

I only wish that you will be happy....

PS: IMY,ILY.

It's blogging time! :D I'll start from 12 of September,cos quite alot of things to say. :)

12/09/2009

Happy 4th ..................................

I Know you'll be sad when you saw this... But no worries,i'm brave,i won't cry de. :)

Best wishes to you ................

Hope that .................

Sometimes i really feel sad when ...................

But i really can't do anything...........................

I just wish that things will become better... :)

Stay happy, I will ..........................................

Okay,lets jump back to the Main Conclusion.

Saturday was our 'BIG BOSS' Mr Jin Guang's NC16 Rated birthday (Finally NC16... you made us wait damn long...)

He was the master planner,and also the one who was late in telling me the details of his plan... Grr...

Sakura Clementi Woods were the restaurant that he wanna treat us on...

BUT,due to the stupidity(or should i say stubborness) of him for not calling me to reserve tables... We went there,But didn't eat due to no seats... -.-"

I suggested going to West Coast Plaza to have a look at the Restaurants there.. (Because,he said he wants to eat Buffet. )

Thought of Sakae Sushi... But,unfortunately,no one wants to eat that... So we headed down to Clementi Train Station and then back to JURONG POINT ( -.-" )

Reach there,disaster,chaotic,war... STARTED!!! -.-" I did nothing at all... and they all blame me... -.-"

He said he wants to eat Buffet... And Jurong Point only got 3 buffets... Intro him one,he say don't want... Intro him Sakae,no reply.. Can eat at West Coast Plaza don't want. Intro him Chew's Kitchen,say so many excuses... (Maybe to him is not.. Maybe i misunderstood him.. But indeed,he has Budget Cap.)

He wanna eat Swensens... As it was his favourite... I followed... Unfortunately,Long queue...

Went to Chew's Kitchen in the end... Was asked to wait for 10-15 mins due to limited seats... So they decided to walk around.

During that short amont of time,no one ask me things,no one talk to me. I was a loner back then.... I'm eventually one... Why? Cos everyone hates me... Maybe because they think that i'm too short minded,i'm too selfish?? I thought of everyone when i think of things... But no one knows... I lend everyone money at got scolded from parents like @#$% but no one knows... And some still purposely delay and don't want to pay me... And say that i 活该... WTF is this?? I pay for the Birthday present first and everyone take the sweet time to pay me back.. Some eventuall scolded me or say i like Loan Shark... Its like ....

I don't mind not having friends... Cos i'm in my own world... I don't really care now... If want to call me to betray someone,sure... I really cannot tolerate le... People treats me like a rubbish like that... need me jiu protect it so well... Don't need me or find me irritating jiu throw away or throw one side. Its okay... I'm starting to get it,and also get used to it... I thought of everyone and being scolded as a Cheater,a liar, you thought i want... Being running out of a karaoke room and in the instant fell down and hurt my knee cap and like 白脚 like that chase you all like @#$% and keep saying sorry... Its like everything is my fault... i know you 2 have forgiven me,but please stop saying this le okay?? Cos everytime you all say it,i'm guilty,i am the suspect.

I'm on a burst right now,for the first time... Everyone treats me like a fool... Nevermind... It's okay... Don't need me that time come beg me for help can liao... It's almost the end already... 1 more time f these things.. i'll really burst up and say goodbye to all of you. Maybe to you all,saying goodbye is nothing.. Really? Sure.I'll say goodbye to all of you if you all want me to. To Jeremy: you've been always looking at my blog and eventually reading all.. you might find it funny.. But i've had enough le... Don't come in front of me and ask why.. I'm just tired,stress and abit flared about recent cases.

Chew's kitchen was quite great,the food was somehow... EXCELLENT :D

Too much details not able to tell... But i can say that the food was really great.. But not attractive then Oishi(Sakura -.-")

Just some simple chinese cuisine... Yea,they eat very less... I ate ALOT... Really ALOT... ALOT until i want to puke.. -.-"

Ate the most should be the 馒头 bahh,so nice... Dip with the Chilli Crab sauce... its really... GREAT! :D

Then eat the Moose + Pudding.. Especially the Mango Moose.. Have you wonder 2 guys fighting for few cups of Mango Moose... -.-" But,Does not include me.. Cos i don't really like mango...

Went to play pool after that.. Fun,because its 4v4... :D

As usual,i perform quite well,did some skill play and power play. :D

Fun,but it ended as everyone disperse and went home.

Went to Macdonalds with Jiemin just to buy Dble Fillet'O'Fish for her Sis... And eventually,The air con of the Macdonalds were switched off... -.-" we feel ike entering a furnace... Whats a furnace??Somewhere where coffin and burned.. -.-" HOT!!

Went home after that... Tired.. But what to do?? Watch soccer and then sleep lo..

THE END.

23:59,i sended you a sms... 00:00 came a reply which i find weird... But how i wish that you ........ But,things don't go well on me... Maybe i'm just... Unlucky bahhs...

13/9/2009

Nothing to really say about lehhs.. Cause whole day i was at home.. -.-" Really tired and bloated...

The End.

14/9/2009 Thats Today! :)

School Reopen! No diff to the Sec 4s and 5s.. -.-"

Lessons as usual... BUT,JieYing never come school,no POA... BigEyesChee came but never teach.. Don't know why... Only attented Maths In the end luhh... But lucky that today don't have remedial... Can relax and rest abit...

Hope that tomorrow will be a better day right?? Friday English Prelim le.. -.-"

Really quite scared... Should go and study le... Bye~ :)

Really sad that ..............

But,I will ...........

I know that you won't read my blog de... I understand...

Nevermind~ I'll just keep to myself all these things bahh...

PS: ILY.

经过教堂的窗外 人们表情遗憾
百合编织著严肃的纯白
管风琴奏著伤怀 有谁比我明白
失去一切是怎样的感慨

★ 真爱如今只剩残骸 灵魂留下空洞悲哀
你离开 爱不在 像是超现实的意外
上帝若能对我慷慨 带我飞到天国之外
拥著你 说出来 除了你不爱

为活著还是为爱 让你绝望离开
放下这一切要多麼勇敢
爱上你并不意外 想忘记你有多难
或许要用这余生去缅怀

Repeat ★

如果时空能逆转 多希望分你一半
我这一生的愉快
明知永远不可能释怀
至少曾经拥有你的爱

Repeat ★ x 2

It's been a long time since i've last blog le.. totally for 1 week! ><

Let me summarise everything by days bah...

This few days have been busy... Busy with training Basketball... At least the Efforts is not wasted (Please continue reading to find out more...)

Monday and Tuesday have been packed with *MOCK EXAMS*,can say its definately a "Prelim Style" Paper...

Tuesday after school went to JinGuang's house downstairs play basketball... Thanks to all of them for teaching me some new skills to use :D

After that went to Jurong Point to be a Fillial Boy... Ate Cavana and went to watch a little bit of the "Unique Ge Tai"... -.-"

After that then went to NTUC Xtra to buy some things and my mother say she suddenly want to buy RING SIA!! ><

The she went to a shop that sell couple rings and see... end up also buy.. -.-" (How i wish i can buy a couple ring for you,and for me.................)

Wednesday,English remedial... As usual,I'm late,2 mins late.. And when i open the door of the PBD(Pa Buey Doh) Studio,the first person i see is Big Eyes Chee.. And the only student is see is Ah Teck... -.-"  10 people selected for this remedial,only 3 turned up,Suchin was 30 mins late.. -.-"

Did summary practise.. :D SWEET!

After that,same luhh... Go home rest...

Thursday was quite tired... Need to go all over to Aljunied to collect Jerseys and Goodie Bag for the team...

End up also Daniel,Jeremy,Jun Kai,Ting Hui,Wei Lun and Jin Guang also go there..

Got a Yellow Converse bag with Jeremy and a black one for our Mighty LIZARD~ -.-"

The jersey was quite nice.. White with gold,and there are gold stars on the side! :D

Went to eat a "DIFFERENT" style of Yong Tau Fu... Quite Nice! :D

Ok things get simple as we walk to the mrt while playing 成语接龙,which makes everyone crack their brains...

Then board the MRT and homed.

Finally,its today! FRIDAY!

Morning woke up quite early AS USUAL... -.-"

Then bath and pack things inside the new Converse back,and went to the MRT to meet 174 Club(My Team) and DLJ (A.K.A --> Dua Lan Jiao <-- No offence )

We are so uncles inside the train,keep talking talking and talking non stop...

Reaching the Basketball court,everything is different... I'm soooo NERVOUS! ><

Went to eat in the foodcourt,i ate Vegetarian Rice(I Know its abit Aunty eating that... But its Healthier and lighter..)

Then went to toilet to change the jersey and then went down to the reporting venue.

When we reach the court,we saw Morgan,Jeffery,Jin Guang,Qi Long,Jie Min and Kay Fun.. Guess what? Their the supporters of 174 Club and DLJ :D

First Match : 174 Club VS Prestige ASC (Blue)

No offence,but i guess their from ITE... Why? Continue reading~ :D

I wore the number 8 beet.. Actually i want 9 de... ( It's always the favourite and lucky number of you and me... )

But nevermind.. Since Jeremy wants it,i gave it to him then :D

The Match was somehow... Rough...

We played agressive and try to get the hold of every ball! :D

Whats great is really the 3 point shot from Jeremy! My heart was so excited and enlighted and i shouted in furious "Swee la!"

The match continue as one guy punch Mr Lizard's ( Chin Leh ) eyes there and being Fouled Out  with 5 personal fouls.

The game ended in a win to 174 Club! :D 14-12!

BUT,things were not going smoothly for us,as one guy i think is the friends of the Prestige ASC (Blue) team,kick CL on his legs and kick his butt and started hitting him hardly and ganging him up.

Don't know why for the moment,i went to told the judge,"Ref,there is someone beating my players up!" And the ref blow the whistle to us them to get out of the shopping centre FTM.

We walk away and walk around the shopping centre while resting...

And few minutes later went down again to support DLJ.

The Match was: DLJ VS TPSS Team 2

Ting Hui was fouled out... And DLJ lose to TPSS 19-15... GRR!!!!

After their match was our next match...

Second Match: 174 Club VS Nee Soon East CSC

Haiis.. Don't wish to elaborate much further... Heard that its a Combine School team... The Center was around 188-190 tall,from Chung Cheng(Yishun) named Qin De(Sorry if i spelled it wrongly..)

And to not forget is that Nee Soon East CSC was the winning team of the "Velocity B-Ball Battle" Under 16 Category..

Yes,it was shame,we lose to them 35-0 and the match lasted for 7 mins.. which is 2x lesser then the time limit of 15 mins... -.-"

After that went to watch the match between DLJ and W.A.D.! Team...

DLJ won the match. But i forget the score le.. i think is 34-1X bahh...><

Good Job to both 174 Club and DLJ for securing a win but sad for not entering the Quarter Finals..

But its Okay~ at least we show great sportsmanship during the competition and never disgrace ourself.

After that,went to Suntec City Convention Hall for COMEX!

COMEX was fantastic.. EVERYTHING IS SO 'CHEAP'!

Chin Leh and Jin Guang got the Walkman that they've dream for.. Happy For them! :D

And for Jeremy,he got his lanyard with my help... -.-" Cos its free...

After that went to Level 4 for an all-around walk...

Found nothing that i want.. End up they all keep complaining...

They went to find a 'Hidden Street' and sit and rest.. -.-"

As for me,i went up to Level 6 myself and find my things!

Found my things... But the headphones are to small to clip on my ears... -.-"""""" -.-"""""" So sad..

Found my memory stick! 4GB for 28 dollars! :D

Meet them in Hidden Street and wen up again to buy the Memory Stick.

Then the Memory Stick got Lucky Draw... Guess what i won?? :D

I won a BLUETOOTH!! which is the 6th prize! I think i'm lucky! :D

After that,went to Marina Square's Foodcourt to eat... Eat Curry chicken... Then walk walk take MRT back home. The End. :D

What happen at home:

Me: Hey,guess what i won from the Sony Lucky draw??

Mum: Surely nothing good...

Me: BLUETOOTH WORRH!!! -.-"

Mum: Jin Eh Bo?? (Real anot?)

Me: (Show the Bluetooth to my mum) SEE!

Mum: Ok lor~ -.-"

Dad: Wah you have ah? I want! I need it lorhh...

Me: I think Nokia Phone cannot use worhhs...

Bro: Bluetooth all phone can use except china phone...

Me: Okay lorhh... give you lurhhs... Cannot listen music anyway... Now charging.. Tomorrow then set up for you.

Dad: Okay Okay...

The End....

-.-" -.-" -.-" My Bluetooth has flown away...

To ___ :

You'll feel angry after you read this post...

You'll say: "Why still join basketball competition...? Studies are more important..."

I know..,i will strive to study hard to achieve better results,trust me.

I feel sad... Real sad... I can't do anything but just to look at you suffer...

You've always said to me that i'm a 'Nice Guy', but truly,I'm a 'USELESS GUY.'

I don't know what to do,I don't know what can i do... I only wish that you're happy...

I hope that you don't hide things from me,i'll also not hide things from you... We'll be honest to each other alright?? :)

I Love you, i Love you... I will always Love you...

PS: Distance is not a factor which affect us,Distance is a factor which will makes us more closer to each other...

Bought a new ball at Queensway Shopping Centre! :D

Cheap! Cos i bargain! :D

I Bargain till the boss almost want cry or have stroke le...

Super scared one la.. Its like one day you see in stomp: "Secondary School Students Bargain 2 Ball Prices Until the Boss get STROKE!" i will sure feel 'diao' -.-"

Bought 2 of it! One for me,one for JG. :D

Play Basketball myself after i haved my bath! :D

I played 3 on 3 with China people.. LOL! Shock huh?

Its part of training! :D

Training~Training~Training! I'll be fit by next week! :)

Bag today is so heavy... @#$%ing N Level! Need our class room for examinations... End up i need to clear all the books under my table.. -.- its @#$%ing heavy...

Thanks to Jeremy for sharing such amazing stories to me and Pump my new ball with YaYa,Thanks! And as for @#$%^&, i don't know what to say to you.. Better change your attitude now or say bye bye to our friendship.

Thanks to Mr Liew,you know why... I salute to you!! BOTAK! BOTAK! BOTAK!

Mr DLJH,don't let me see you,or i'll beat you till you have no teeth to bite meat,make you regret what you've done!! :@

PS: I'll wait you till rain ends and sun rise. ILY! Muackz Muackz!

Got a new haircut! :D

Don't know how to explain the hairstlye worhhs...

Left Hand Side Short Bangs + Half-Botak. :D

I like it very much!! Cos no need to style behind le.. just need to style infront jiu ke yi le... :)

Tomorrow going Phototaking,then going somewhere... but not sure...

Saturday going to Orchard! Yeepee! I Love Orchard! I Love Orchard!

Going to Kinokuniya to buy my BANGS Magazine! :D

Everytime i think of her,i tend to cry,tend to cut myself,tend to bang the wall,tend to scream out loud... Why am i like that? Can anyone cure me from this sickness?

PS: When i see your pictures,tears dripped down my cheeks... Smsing you is the only way to cheer myself up so that i can talk to you... But,if you don't reply.. i tend to have Emotional Breakdown... ILY. :'(

Sad Week? But nobody knows...

Tuesday - DPA Failed

Wednesday - CL Results Dissapointing.

Friday - Grandmother Passed Away

Sunday - ........

I just wish that this week will not happen ever again.. You'll never know how sad i am..

Tears fall from my eyes anytime.. I almost want to die...

But! Specially thanks to ...... , ....... and Visha for chatting and cheering me up ( but i'm still no cheered up.. :X )

Thanks to ...... for not giving up on me,i'll also not give up on you. IILY.

And specially thanks to 吴老师 for revising the CL Compo format with me,Thank YOU SO MUCH! :D

Today morning i heard one song,the lyrics summarises how i feel now.. maybe try guessing this song bah.. its really nice..